Wednesday, February 26, 2014

One down...a few more to go

I'm making a small dent in my WIPs pile...slowly but surely!

I finished up these cute little longies this morning (its a 6month size!) Tried out a new finish for the hem called the "butterfly stitch". It turned out so cute! I wish I had done some ruffles on the hem just before the 'butterflies'...maybe next time.

The yarn is Shasta Daisy Knits' "Fall Rainbow" colorway, on MCN DK. Its the same yarn I used to make my toddler's Flax sweater last month.

I have a new favourite hem! You will be seeing this in a *lot* more projects to come  =)

I'm still working away on that table topper, slowly quilting it. Right now it is sitting as a rolled up 'quilt sandwich' (or would that be a quilt wrap? quilt roll?) next to my sewing machine.

I also started on a couple of items for a custom order tonight. For now, I've just cut up all the fabric for the patchwork. I'll put together the blocks, and finish sewing them up over the next couple of days. So watch this space for more WIP updates!

Just a bunch of triangles, squares and rectangles at the moment. Any guesses as to what these will be? :D

My Time.

When I was planning my maternity leave, I had some lofty aspirations. Really lofty. I was finally going to have so much time on my hands to do all those things I wanted to do, but never could, because I was always working full time. I would sew, and learn to knit, and cook everyday. keep the house spotless, take lots of cute photos of my baby, take him/her out to play groups, meet lots of other new moms and make a ton of new friends.

After all, a newborn just fed and slept. Right?

Fast forward to the first few days after baby's arrival and I found myself adjusting to this new person in my life. My amazingly supportive husband did what he could to help in that one week he had off of work. The following week, it was just my baby girl and I. I loved being home with her, having her all to myself, soaking in her newness, her every little movement. I couldn't believe this little person had developed inside of me and was now here. And so real. 

Soon my days were a blur. A never-ending cycle of breastfeeding, changing diapers, laundry, rocking her to sleep, taking her in and out of the wrap, trying to keep her asleep. All while still trying to function as a human being - remembering to drink enough water, eat on time. Had I brushed my teeth that morning? How many hours has that tea been sitting in the microwave? 

I looked forward to 6pm when my hubby would walk through the door and immediately take over the baby, without question. So I could go shower... eat...sleep...whatever I needed or wanted to do. I needed to do everything, and nothing all at once. I felt overwhelmed by my need to meet my own expectations while struggling to accept the reality that my pre-baby plans for my maternity leave were not going to happen. Not anytime soon.  What was wrong with me? Why couldn't I do this? I was an organized, efficient person! A lot of days, the only time I actually changed my pj's was when my baby spit up all over me. And most days my biggest accomplishment was rocking or wearing my baby to sleep. I felt like I was failing! 

My husband never once wondered why there were dirty dishes on the counter, or why I was still in my pj's from 2 nights ago, or why the bathtub hadn't been scrubbed in over a week. He only cared if I had eaten. If I had napped when baby napped. According to him, my only job was to take care of our little girl. And myself. 

It did get easier. Eventually. We all found a rhythm that worked for us. We got into a routine. I let go trying to do it all during nap times, trying to be my idea of the 'perfect mom and wife'. I stopped trying so hard to do what I thought I *should* be doing, and focused instead on what I was doing - being there for my baby. 

I DID learn to knit --- when she was about 16 months old. I DID get around to sewing --- trainers for her since she was potty learning around that same time (16-17months). I cooked every few days, cleaned the house when I could. It was never spotless, but it was safe for my baby and comfortable. I DID take a ton of photos of my little girl ... memories I am so grateful to have been around for. I DID NOT ever get to take her to play groups or meet other new moms. At least not in real life. I did, however, meet a few new moms online in 'mommy groups' on Facebook. I am still friends with these amazing women. 

In terms of living, we made lots of changes that have helped us achieve a happy balance. We live with my inlaws now, so we have lots of help with the little one. Hubby switched careers, so he is actually home a lot more. I am blessed to have a wonderful family that supports my creativity and my passion of knitting and sewing (allowing me to actually start up a home business doing so).

I still catch myself struggling to find the time to do all the things I want to do. But I no longer sweat it. I no longer look back at my day or week or month, and look for a tangible accomplishment. I get anywhere between 0-5 hours a week to work on my projects - personal or business. I know this. I am ok with this. That is my only "me" time.   

My little girl is almost 3 years old now. She is a smart, independent, confident, loving, witty, funny, passionate, opinionated, compassionate, gentle, thoughtful, amazing little girl! *That* right there. That is my accomplishment for the last 3 years of love, laughter, tears, joy, frustration, highs, lows and everything in between.

My little girl is growing up fast. And won't always need me as much as she does right now. She may not remember me struggling to keep the house in order, or churning out so many handmade items a week. She *will* remember that her mama was always there for her.  

Because really... I have finally understood this. That at the end of the day, there is no "my" time. My time, my dear child, is yours :).  

Monday, February 24, 2014

Monday Madness

I'm working on a few projects this week. I've got so many ideas and patterns bookmarked, and I'd really like to start actually making them! 

First up, is a table topper. I picked out some neutral scraps to use for this one. Its going to have some red and teal applique on it, so the neutral background squares will work well.
(This table topper will be available for purchase once its finished)

This project really had me perfecting my corners. I'm actually quite pleased with how crisp they turned out.

Next up, I made a grey and blue patchwork mug rug, with a cute little Owl in the middle. I'm loving owls these days.  
(Available for purchase: $15 shipped within Canada and the U.S)

 I also paired up some scraps to make this cute little zippy. It measures 7.5" x 6". Fully quilted with cotton batting to protect your belongings. I added a sweet little zipper charm (from Tonic & Lime Designs) to the zippy. Here's the front and back of the pouch:

(Available for purchase: $25 shipped within Canada and to the US)

Finally, a rainbow mug rug. I will be hand binding this tonight. I love love love rainbows. Don't you? This mug rug would brighten up a snow day like today. Add a nice warm beverage, a yummy snack, and you're good to go!

(Will be available for purchase once its complete) 

How has your Monday been so far?

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Some baby things...

Good Morning|! I've been quiet here lately. Mostly from working at my part time day job, and spending all free time working on personal projects and a few custom orders :)

My sister-in-law had a baby shower to attend recently and wanted to gift something special. I offered to make up a little baby set of a burp cloth and a bib. Since we don't know the gender of the baby, I went with a Dr.Seuss theme. Its pretty gender neutral I think (and who doesn't like Dr.Seuss!?).

The bib is between an infant and toddler size, so hopefully gets some good use.

The Burp cloth I made a 8"x8" so its a nice size. Big enough to be useful, but small enough for even a little one to carry around. 

I backed both with soft squishy terry cloth. Easy to use, easy to wash and super absorbent. 

I really enjoyed making will be adding them to my list of items :)